Feb 2007

I start to complain about my busy schedule and so wanting for the year to end. This post will sum up all of Feb 2007.

5 Feb 2007
Well, I was right on Sunday (yesterday) about my mother, only that it applies to my father as well. Not that I don't care, but when 2 avatars just passed me, oh well.

Reflection
I shall include this portion if I have anything to add on. That was a surprisingly short post, probably I was tired of writing the same disastrous things repeatedly. To add the background and make it easier to understand, this happens when my parents were like my sister and did not give me what I wanted - even if it means just 10 mins of computer time. Which all my other peers have, and that leaves me very confused and frustrated as I grew up. Their behaviour got worse, as do my hatred for them, as you shall see in later posts, which I hope to get them up.

10 Feb 2007
I'll just sum up, meaning this is not the same word-for-word copy in my diary. This post is one of my few congratulatory posts. It was the first time I said I want to "put (this) whole diary on (my) blog", which means I have already suffered enough under my parents' and sister's terrifying reign. I also wrote about my first namecard that I created - and I think all my creations fill me with happiness, which I lack in my home.

17 Feb 2007 Chinese New Year's eve
If the saying -what happens today will happen for the following year is right, then:

1. Sister will still be lazy, not buying food (Lunch, when no one else cooks) for herself, and make me do so for her. (Like a maid - she already orders me around then.)
2. I will be scolded by my parents.
3. I will hate my sister.
4. I will brood about my past. (Last time, I endured a lot before writing down one post of abuse, hence it's not in my diary; more will come in the future)

19 Feb 2007
I actually "feel a twinge of happiness knowing that I will e returning to school after CNY", which I believe gives  me a sanctuary. At least, when I'm not at home, I will be get scolded and beaten by my family members for no reason. This shows the severity is already quite heavy at that time. To think that I actually endured till this day without doing anything bad to them.

All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.

7 Jan 2007 late at night

What I want is only a little wish!!!
I can't even stay on the net a second more when others can do so unlimited!!! I'm just going to finish my task of watching Nanoha A's Episode 10!!! It just can't load! And she threatened me not to play on Sloth's Day (next week)! HELLO!!! 2 avatars available only on that day!!! You ask me to sacrifice my time. Do you??? no! My mother - SELFISH, INSOLENT, BIG, FAT BRAT!!!

All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.

19 March 2003

At last, I'm going to start transporting my Diary into the cloud. it's mostly on the abuse I receive from my family which I hope someone out there can sympathize and help me with. Hence, I changed the labels, Web Diary, is for entries that are not written down in pen and paper, but Diary is so. I guess I can start now.

Apparently, I started receiving these unnecessary scoldings when I was in Primary 4 in 2003. That makes this year the 8th anniversary. Then, it was because my Primary School shifted due to MOE's upgrading. My parents didn't manage to transfer me to another school. In P4, CCA started and there were school trips. Hence, transportation from walking changed to bus, which was quite costly to us, as we are and still not so average. In fact, I would say it's getting worse, as with the scoldings.

 I wrote "My sister scolded me for everything ... The scoldings went on for days." This means that the scoldings took place earlier than that and it had started to hurt me already. But I shall put that as normal.

 Well, you will get to read the escalating of violence.

All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.