Always the easiest to get bullied, taken advantaged of, in office and at home, then get scolded

lol crazy father, stressed angry at mother and the children. too many things to wash cuz children stuff also wash at my place. then cannot wash my long sleeve in time also scold me. But I never do anything to disturb him. All the rubbish is from factors unrelated to me, and I get scolded.

Always the easiest to get bullied, taken advantaged of, in office and at home, then get scolded.

Then they shouldn't argue and say that I don't want to talk to them. because I haven't even talk to them already step on landmine to get scolded. What's more if I talk to them?

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1 March 2020

I finally got my hands on OCS PT kit, something that I wanted. I went running earlier because my mother forced me to do it through her negativity.

Then my father said why you wear OCS PT kit throw away la, ppl see not nice.

Then it's like what you want me do, what I wear also cannot. What I do or don't do also wrong. Whenever I'm in front of their face, I become a subject of their negativity and the victim.

They caused me to have no self esteem, resulting in my retarded social, emotional and psychological growth. And I still must be their puppet.

My father already cannot withstand my mother's negativity and is already a mirror of her. I am next as I'm already toxic to them in my head, but of course I don't dare to say it out.

I don't want it to affect my life and you as well.

I really can see those kids who keep playing computer and don't study. There were those months where I just go home everyday from work, then turn on laptop to play Overwatch until 1030-11.30 pm then I go sleep. Just to block everything out.

The ironic thing is the very thing they were against me is what's keeping me sane. My father using my old handphone and my sister bought my mother a handphone so now they both watch the handphone for a few hours a day. Lucky they don't practice what they preach for once.

Also, now got the House Improvement Project - caused by my mother's ego. She insisted on doing. so all the extra work to clean and prepare is done by my father. My sister jumped in to scold me at every single opportunity to help out. But of course my father being the ancient ego type, refused to receive help.

My sister would message me, ever since I got my data. When I single tick, she say why data is not on, it should be double tick. When 2 ticks, she say why don't read. why take so long. isn't your phone always with you - but that's her, and my parents don't like anyone to use the phone often. When blue tick, she will say why no response. That's because when i respond with 'ok', she will say why only respond one line. is it you angry with me. then she will suddenly be angry with me and don't talk and say bad things to my parents in front of me. Then if I respond with multiple lines, she will triple those number of lines to scold me back or to do things.

my parents are both demented. my mother is the famous gone case. My father in the past 6 months, will only describe a thing with a 3 word phrase instead of a sentence. It's prone to multiple interpretations. I don't reply back, they say I don't talk to parents. so i talk. But since I obviously misinterpreted it, and no thanks to them always changing topic in the middle of nowhere, my father will suddenly angry and say 'talk to you useless one. you also don't understand at all. say so many times also don't know'.

He is demented. other than easily losing his temper, he also lost his sense of logic. he can argue with me over simple maths.

You know I from sengkang if I dance or gym 1 hour, i will reach home at 8 pm. But OCH is nearer. i reach home at 7.45 but I still kenna worse. They are discouraging me from going gym, saying that I should go home after work, spend time with parents, talk about the day.

Yea right and be a monster like them and spread negativity from work to home? Sorry but I'm not a monster yet.

And I also know that as much I need overwatch, it's an absolute waste of time, to the extent that I don't even read newspapers. because the moment I step in, their incessant voices are so loud until i plug my earphones in. Then being a sadistic Sombra and hacking everyone. then kill the low HP ones for cheap thrills.

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22 Apr 2017

好像我曾经发过这样的帖文：

“如果不是我要的人，我宁可不去尝试，也要以时间换来我要的幸福。”

今天却让我再次有感而发。

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28 Feb 2017

《心情录音室》2月28日
“独”光晚餐
不是因为你做的不够多，还是没做什么，而是对方不选择你。所以不管你做什么，即使你帮他捡回一条生命，你还是排在第二。

坚持着，但迟早会到放弃的时候。我真的很累。

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15 Feb 2017

别人送免费礼品，我不一定会去拿。第一次释放，让自己享受生活。因为我等不到 “谁” 能抽个空，来打扰我。

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8 Feb 2017

歌词文章 - 杨丞琳
还以为“痛”快地唱出《被自己绑架》就能释放一切，反而《懂得自己》还更有效。

如果一个人 就随性纯真
不委屈自己　当最配合的人
不为难自己　找完美的可能
真希望 从想太多　变最爱笑的人
的那一天能尽快到。
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4 Feb 2017

只不过过了五个月，怎么好像一年的时光已过？
五个月后的我，能笑得这么灿烂，整个人都不同了，连我自己都差点认不出来。

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3 Feb 2017

付出了时间、金钱、努力；每一个都有好许多例子。谁还凭感觉选择自己要吃什么呢？就是因为没有疯狂的喜欢一种食品，就不会每时每刻折磨自己没得吃啊。

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26 Jan 2017

人们总爱说要接受对方，才能幸福。

也有人说，不要为幸福而放弃做自己喜欢做的事。

到底谁是对的？

S.H.E. 《他还是不懂》
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25 Jan 2017

和学姐享用晚餐，真的令我敬佩。外面有这么多比我更辛苦的人，都是我的启发。我希望我再也不要和昨天一样心情那么差了。
诚心献上 梁文音 - 《我们会再见》

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24 Jan 2017

真可惜，了解我的人不再喜欢我了，而我的现任一点都并不懂我。但是，还想挽回从前。
怎么会沦到这个地步。我先打电话给一个人谈谈，也很难吗？
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7 Jan 2017

还没开课，情绪已经开始不稳定了……

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28 Dec 2016

曾经写过，也曾经说要听偶像的话。张韶涵：“再见之前，再去爱。”

人与人之间的互动一定会有些争执，反正我总和非相似个性的人相处，这也该是理所当然的。但，单纯地想要一切完美，有错吗？

虽然我不应该让这些巨石视为绊脚石，亦不该气得分离，但对方永远不知道、明白、体会、谅解在夜深人静时，这些错误的念头会显示它们丑陋的一面，令我孤立无助，抵挡不了暴风雨的来袭。不是我没有努力，只是我无法单独面对悲惨的局面。

每逢圣诞佳节，会吹来超冷的寒风。

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11 Dec 2016

自尊心太强，才会说出，做出背叛真心的行为，造成不少误会。对不起，希望你能听到。

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5 Dec 2016

差一点忘记是什么让我快乐。差一点为了微不足道的人事物，而放弃做让自己破涕为笑的事。尤其当对方根本都不察觉、意识到。

"因为单身的艰难　来自人们看情感" －杨丞琳《单》

这也是第一次，没向你诉苦。真希望你能读懂我的心意。

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1 Dec 2016

最心痛的是，眼睁睁看着自己心爱的人被另一个人抢走，而自己已经做得最好了。

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8 Nov 2016

《是时候》休息一下，让情绪沉淀下来。
无论结果是怎样，都无法自欺欺人。
因为不管我的选择是什么，对方早已做出抉择。
只能收拾行李，默默离开。

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25 Oct 2016

最想念一个人的时候，得唱什么歌呢？
张韶涵《把你信仰》2016 年，最想念一个人的歌曲
希望能唱入对方的心

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18 Oct 2016

谁没爱过，只是你爱的可能只是路人。路人会走掉，你有何必一直对他的背影念念不忘呢？

第二遍看了李荣浩的词才了解他的用意。以后我得多关注他作的词！

杨丞琳 - 《观众》
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8 Oct 2016

梦最初的约定 十年之后还记得吗
好幸运 我有你 — 张韶涵《还记得吗》

能让我安心入眠，能让我笑着睡着，能让我一觉醒来感觉活力四射，好幸运，我有你。

You taught me to be independent, to not think so much, so I shall treasure the present. "Keep smiling and just be happy. Just enjoy everyday that you can enjoy", and you echoed what the singer just said yesterday.

#ABC1101

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