Well, I'm not going to waste my time writing all about my family problems. I'll just say it once and of course, I wouldn't want to repeat writing them again.
The problem with my parents is that they will pick on me. Anything. They'll scold me just like all those children in the storybooks. If I say 'yes', they scold. 'No', they also scold. Eg: They wash clothes in the morning. It dried in the afternoon.
Yes - I keep them. They believed it's not dry though and scold me for keeping wet clothes.
No - On another day, I did not keep it. When they came and felt it was dry, they grumbled why it was not kept.
They only believe in one thought - which is usually not a fact - no matter what happens. This shows how stubborn they can be.
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Friday, May 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
29 April 2007
Boo hoo... I'm crying now. I locked my door. When I heard that Mummy and Sister are going overseas, I was so happy as I could play computer for days! But when it was not the school holidays (too expensive) and it was not after my exams, which meant I cannot play! She did not even went on her her half day off, as it would be wasted. So self-centered!!!
Reflection
This post is extremely emotional that I'm going to stop here first and talk about it. So last time, it can be deduced taht she started bullying me by not allowing me to play computer games and I'm talking about the bare minimum of 1 hour where other children got 3h. At least. So if she is not in Singapore, I could get more playtime. But the circumstances were not to be. Apparently, this was a huge blow to me at that time. Or is it that I feel this episode is much too minor as compared to how she treats me now.
Continue typing (skipping some parts)
I want to achieve good results in my school, but they discourage me (never say a good thing and always say "I will fail") and are never on my side. Which don't make me happy. According to my psychological instincts, I don't even have the will to survive!
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Reflection
This post is extremely emotional that I'm going to stop here first and talk about it. So last time, it can be deduced taht she started bullying me by not allowing me to play computer games and I'm talking about the bare minimum of 1 hour where other children got 3h. At least. So if she is not in Singapore, I could get more playtime. But the circumstances were not to be. Apparently, this was a huge blow to me at that time. Or is it that I feel this episode is much too minor as compared to how she treats me now.
Continue typing (skipping some parts)
I want to achieve good results in my school, but they discourage me (never say a good thing and always say "I will fail") and are never on my side. Which don't make me happy. According to my psychological instincts, I don't even have the will to survive!
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Monday, January 3, 2011
Singapore OK... or Not? Episode 6: Unreliable Service on the Circle Line
I wanted to write this to the forums, but there wasn't time for me to do so last time. So I completed it and will post it here.
Unreliable Service on the Circle Line
I had an unpleasant experience travelling on the Circle Line from Stadium Station at 8.15pm in the direction of Marymount on 13 August 2010. According to a robotic voice, the train was 'delayed' as there was a 'train fault'. The train was travelling at an incredibly slow pace, such that you can count the number of supporting structures that went around the circular tunnel on both sides simultaneously. More than once, the train actually stopped. The longest was almost ten minutes. The train fault appeared to "resolved" after Mountbatten as the train picked up speed after that. From Stadium to Mountbatten, which is the station immediately after Stadium, the train took an appalling 18 minutes!
Compared to the East-West line and North-South line, which took an average of 2 and 3 minutes respectively before calling at the next station, 18 minutes is tantamount to the time taken from Kallang to Queenstown on the East West line or Dhoby Ghaut to Yio Chu Kang on the North South line. I find it ludicrous that I could use the time to "fly" from one side of Singapore to the other!
Trains are seen as a speedy method to travel around the island as it goes inter-towns and not intra-towns like buses. With more train routes being added, Circle Line could serve as a check for reliable service, which we do pay increasing fares every other year. Until one day, when public transport excel in all areas will car ownership decrease.
Unreliable Service on the Circle Line
I had an unpleasant experience travelling on the Circle Line from Stadium Station at 8.15pm in the direction of Marymount on 13 August 2010. According to a robotic voice, the train was 'delayed' as there was a 'train fault'. The train was travelling at an incredibly slow pace, such that you can count the number of supporting structures that went around the circular tunnel on both sides simultaneously. More than once, the train actually stopped. The longest was almost ten minutes. The train fault appeared to "resolved" after Mountbatten as the train picked up speed after that. From Stadium to Mountbatten, which is the station immediately after Stadium, the train took an appalling 18 minutes!
Compared to the East-West line and North-South line, which took an average of 2 and 3 minutes respectively before calling at the next station, 18 minutes is tantamount to the time taken from Kallang to Queenstown on the East West line or Dhoby Ghaut to Yio Chu Kang on the North South line. I find it ludicrous that I could use the time to "fly" from one side of Singapore to the other!
Trains are seen as a speedy method to travel around the island as it goes inter-towns and not intra-towns like buses. With more train routes being added, Circle Line could serve as a check for reliable service, which we do pay increasing fares every other year. Until one day, when public transport excel in all areas will car ownership decrease.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Feb 2007
I start to complain about my busy schedule and so wanting for the year to end. This post will sum up all of Feb 2007.
5 Feb 2007
Well, I was right on Sunday (yesterday) about my mother, only that it applies to my father as well. Not that I don't care, but when 2 avatars just passed me, oh well.
Reflection
I shall include this portion if I have anything to add on. That was a surprisingly short post, probably I was tired of writing the same disastrous things repeatedly. To add the background and make it easier to understand, this happens when my parents were like my sister and did not give me what I wanted - even if it means just 10 mins of computer time. Which all my other peers have, and that leaves me very confused and frustrated as I grew up. Their behaviour got worse, as do my hatred for them, as you shall see in later posts, which I hope to get them up.
10 Feb 2007
I'll just sum up, meaning this is not the same word-for-word copy in my diary. This post is one of my few congratulatory posts. It was the first time I said I want to "put (this) whole diary on (my) blog", which means I have already suffered enough under my parents' and sister's terrifying reign. I also wrote about my first namecard that I created - and I think all my creations fill me with happiness, which I lack in my home.
17 Feb 2007 Chinese New Year's eve
If the saying -what happens today will happen for the following year is right, then:
I actually "feel a twinge of happiness knowing that I will e returning to school after CNY", which I believe gives me a sanctuary. At least, when I'm not at home, I will be get scolded and beaten by my family members for no reason. This shows the severity is already quite heavy at that time. To think that I actually endured till this day without doing anything bad to them.
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
5 Feb 2007
Well, I was right on Sunday (yesterday) about my mother, only that it applies to my father as well. Not that I don't care, but when 2 avatars just passed me, oh well.
Reflection
I shall include this portion if I have anything to add on. That was a surprisingly short post, probably I was tired of writing the same disastrous things repeatedly. To add the background and make it easier to understand, this happens when my parents were like my sister and did not give me what I wanted - even if it means just 10 mins of computer time. Which all my other peers have, and that leaves me very confused and frustrated as I grew up. Their behaviour got worse, as do my hatred for them, as you shall see in later posts, which I hope to get them up.
10 Feb 2007
I'll just sum up, meaning this is not the same word-for-word copy in my diary. This post is one of my few congratulatory posts. It was the first time I said I want to "put (this) whole diary on (my) blog", which means I have already suffered enough under my parents' and sister's terrifying reign. I also wrote about my first namecard that I created - and I think all my creations fill me with happiness, which I lack in my home.
17 Feb 2007 Chinese New Year's eve
If the saying -what happens today will happen for the following year is right, then:
- Sister will still be lazy, not buying food (Lunch, when no one else cooks) for herself, and make me do so for her. (Like a maid - she already orders me around then.)
- I will be scolded by my parents.
- I will hate my sister.
- I will brood about my past. (Last time, I endured a lot before writing down one post of abuse, hence it's not in my diary; more will come in the future)
I actually "feel a twinge of happiness knowing that I will e returning to school after CNY", which I believe gives me a sanctuary. At least, when I'm not at home, I will be get scolded and beaten by my family members for no reason. This shows the severity is already quite heavy at that time. To think that I actually endured till this day without doing anything bad to them.
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
7 Jan 2007 late at night
What I want is only a little wish!!!
I can't even stay on the net a second more when others can do so unlimited!!! I'm just going to finish my task of watching Nanoha A's Episode 10!!! It just can't load! And she threatened me not to play on Sloth's Day (next week)! HELLO!!! 2 avatars available only on that day!!! You ask me to sacrifice my time. Do you??? no! My mother - SELFISH, INSOLENT, BIG, FAT BRAT!!!
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
I can't even stay on the net a second more when others can do so unlimited!!! I'm just going to finish my task of watching Nanoha A's Episode 10!!! It just can't load! And she threatened me not to play on Sloth's Day (next week)! HELLO!!! 2 avatars available only on that day!!! You ask me to sacrifice my time. Do you??? no! My mother - SELFISH, INSOLENT, BIG, FAT BRAT!!!
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Monday, December 13, 2010
19 March 2003
At last, I'm going to start transporting my Diary into the cloud. it's mostly on the abuse I receive from my family which I hope someone out there can sympathize and help me with. Hence, I changed the labels, Web Diary, is for entries that are not written down in pen and paper, but Diary is so. I guess I can start now.
Apparently, I started receiving these unnecessary scoldings when I was in Primary 4 in 2003. That makes this year the 8th anniversary. Then, it was because my Primary School shifted due to MOE's upgrading. My parents didn't manage to transfer me to another school. In P4, CCA started and there were school trips. Hence, transportation from walking changed to bus, which was quite costly to us, as we are and still not so average. In fact, I would say it's getting worse, as with the scoldings.
I wrote "My sister scolded me for everything ... The scoldings went on for days." This means that the scoldings took place earlier than that and it had started to hurt me already. But I shall put that as normal.
Well, you will get to read the escalating of violence.
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
Apparently, I started receiving these unnecessary scoldings when I was in Primary 4 in 2003. That makes this year the 8th anniversary. Then, it was because my Primary School shifted due to MOE's upgrading. My parents didn't manage to transfer me to another school. In P4, CCA started and there were school trips. Hence, transportation from walking changed to bus, which was quite costly to us, as we are and still not so average. In fact, I would say it's getting worse, as with the scoldings.
I wrote "My sister scolded me for everything ... The scoldings went on for days." This means that the scoldings took place earlier than that and it had started to hurt me already. But I shall put that as normal.
Well, you will get to read the escalating of violence.
All I wish is for another's voice to be in unison with mine.
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